Day: June 3, 2016

The Infinite

Between the numbers one and two there are infinite number of rational numbers. between any two numbers there are infinite number of rational numbers and yet we are able to get from one to two. This is worse than Zeno’s Paradox. At least  Zeno was only discussing half the numbers.

The very fact that we have this concept of the infinite and yet at the same time are unable to fathom  it fully,  proves God.  At least, this is how I understood St. Anselm’s ontological Argument for God’s existence. This ontological argument has always made sense to me. Even as a child I would put one mirror up to another and stare out into the green optical tunnel and search for its end. It makes more sense as I look at the world and its infinite qualities.

If we take a flower in our hand and put it under a microscope we find a new world, a whole new layer!  We could continue and if  we did would find world’s within world’s within worlds within worlds. When would it stop? It doesn’t stop at the atom. We know the flower and hold it, but we only know its surface,  we can only scrape its depths and each layer surprises us.

And if after trillions of years we finally grasp this world’s depths,  what of space? When does it end? So often we think of our planet orbiting a stationary sun, it is presented to us this way as children, but we are not merely circling we are spiraling creating a vortex:

We are vortexing through time. Time is considered the only true unit of measure which gives proof to the existence of matter. And entropy is its arrow.  Now look at the world again and see that not only is this world infinite it is also a  low entropy outcome its very existence an improbability! As improbable and yet as certain as God. And He-  the Eternal Word – is found in the Eucharist. And I a mere dot have consumed Him.

6 Months of BVT!!! Recovering from Lyme


Today marks six months of bee venom therapy! The results are astounding. I will list my symptoms so those who suffer from Lyme can see that healing is possible. You can recover from Lyme!

Symptoms Before BVT and after months and antibiotics: severe migraines, dizziness, joint pain (all over), full body muscle aches, heart palpations, air hunger, sensitivity to light,  extreme fatigue,  hormonal imbalances, lyme rage- mood problems, severe insomnia,  weight loss, extreme muscle weakness (could not climb stairs without losing breath, could not put my hair up without extreme effort and loss of breath). many neuro symptoms including depersonalization, depression, severe brain fog,

Symptoms 6 months into BVT: Joint pain in knees, headaches, occasional fatigue/ fatigue easily, occasional full body muscle aches and hormonal imbalances.

All my Neuro symptoms are gone!

weight is now back to normal and  I am regaining muscle tone!

Symptoms still come back if for some reason I am unable to sting on a sting day. But I hope for a full recovery in a year and a half.

More info on Bee Venom Therapy here 

Married Life’s Learning Curve

In the first years of marriage when my husband was in a dark mood, which happened from time to time, I wouldn’t leave it alone. I would say:  Why are you So angry? What’s wrong with you? Can’t you just be happy? Calm down! All of which were unhelpful and probably hurtful comments.

Now when he is distressed,  I acknowledge his frustrations and leave it alone. Remembering that worries (I may never understand)  weigh on his shoulders alone.  And usually that’s all he wants, recognition, not advice, not answers or suggestions just acknowledgment of his struggles and pain.

There certainly is a learning curve to married life. No? I know our first few years were difficult. After that we settled into one another and the ebb and flow of life together. Despite the sorrows encountered (and there have been many), each year seems better than the last.  Cliche I know, but true.